Hello, I am new to philosophy so please go easy
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I am a Christian, although I do struggle like most people with understanding the problem of evil. The free will defence doesn't solve every problem for me because I don't think finite beings, like us, are morally capable of meeting God's standards and not falling short of the glory of God. This is one of the ways I define "sin".
I do believe I have a "free will", but I think that freedom is not true freedom. In a sense, I am not free to live a completely perfect life that does what ought to be done. It is not morally possible. (I am declared perfect in Christ, but I still sin- though now I have the Holy Spirit in me helping me to change)
Jesus was the only one who lived a sinless life -24/7. (which is amazing to think about when considering a commandment like "Love the Lord your God with all your mind, soul, heart and strength", etc.)
Thinking about how God created us as finite beings, it seems like there are somethings about us that are self-destructive by necessity. Aren't we bound to not live up to God's standards?
As finite beings we have the built in weakness of not being able to love God and people with 100% energy.We have the weakness of not knowing all the right details, to know what is the best course of action in every situation, we don't really know what impact our decisions will make and we don't really have the power to make good happen - these weakness should cause us to depend on Someone who has these qualities (God). But instead of admitting we are weak, we dig deeper to look for what we need. Whether in ourself or in something else, as long as it isn't God. (the root of moral evil)
If this is true, why were we originally made to be morally limited? I think, and please let me know if you think I'm bonkers, that God has made us limited finite beings so that we would be painfully aware of what we are lacking so that we would desire to come to him to satisfy those needs. Putting us in our rightful place and God in His rightful place. Maybe God loves contrast? The lightning is way more impressive in the black of night than during the day.... there happens to be some lightning outside as I write this at 2am
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But still, if I am morally incapable to be "perfect as my Heavenly Father is perfect", should I still be responsible when I can't be perfect physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, etc? I think the answer is, "yes I am responsible", but I'm not 100% sure how to prove it
Any thoughts?
Dmill